it's way too late to be this locked inside ourselves...

so i'm unlocking a little bit.

some things about me that are true.

-if i go out of my way to talk to you, i probably like you a lot more than i let on.
-i'm actually really neutral about a lot of things
-i wish people could read my mind and act accordingly but not as though they are reading my mind.
-there are so many parts of me that i feel i want to improve, but it's hard for me to actually improve. for this reason, i don't appreciate it when people try to predict my behavior, because i want not to be the same me tomorrow as i am today at least in some facet or another. evidently, it does not always work out. changes for me are gradual but real, sometimes as reflected as change in mindset more than a huge shift in actions. i like to do things with the hope that they will inspire me to do other things i want to do, like buy post-it notes or borrow books. i like to surround myself with options.
 -i generally try to avoid helping people when i don't know if i can actually help them. i feel like it's better for us both.
-i have little expendable time. but the time i do have, i do a great job of expending.
-i have a zit on my nose which is in a terrible terrible place because it would be irritated if anyone were to rub noses with me. but rubbing noses is kind of unsanitary.
-i like to walk too fast while listening to music and imagine that everyone is looking at me and thinking i am so cool.
-sometimes i just wish that i'd been a different person so i could do something drastically different in a different place than i am now. i think this comes from a desire to feel what it's like to live somewhere else and to be in a place where people don't know me. i'm sure everyone has the same feelings as i do on this matter.
-i forget what i look like all the time.
-i am pretty sensitive about weird stuff.
-i rarely give up on things, even when i probably should.
-i block things out of my memory quite frequently to avoid dwelling. left to my own devices, i dwell. i need to do things and see people and see the world with renewed excitement everyday in order not to get lost in my own head.