using paragraphs rather than lists

creative things i used to do but don't do now.

write stories, make web sites, write elaborate journal entries including illustrations, wrote songs that used way too many of the only chords i knew how to play on the guitar, put on makeup at 3 AM because i felt like it, cut my own hair, make up elaborate become-really-awesome-in-ten-minutes schemes, make layouts for whatever online journal i was using at the time.


songs i really like but don't know enough about the artist to make a big deal of.

fake palindromes, baby featuring ludacris, penny on a train track, brighter than sunshine, long distance call, paper planes, cigarettes and chocolate milk, sh-boom (life could be a dream), empire state of mind, beautiful girls, in our talons, bad education, it's alright baby


goals for songwriting.

write a ballad that doesn't suck, write an upbeat song that doesn't suck, title something using parentheses, have one song with a really minimalist title, write one song with a title that's a pun, write a song that will bring someone to tears because it's so damn awesome

things i have to throw away/recycle/give away/channel.

anger, passive aggressive people, attachment to earthly things, insane packrat tendencies, most of my makeup, all the clothing i second-guess myself while wearing it because although some people believe in comfort over looks, actually it is possible that you can look super good in something that look super good on you and that's what i believe and i'm sticking to it, probably my harvard sweatshirt because let's be honest i'm not that big of a fan of harvard even if they make warm maroon sweatshirts, my bad attitude regarding cleaning/academics, most of the papers that had to do with middle school and high school, all the brown paper bags i used to transport books home, all those purses meghana regifted to me. 

things i have to learn to live with.

homeless people, state street, being single and cooking for myself, hipsters who never wear the same outfit twice, girlie girls girlier than me, the fact that i'll eventually have to wear makeup in my older age, lopsided organs, the things that 100% of boys do, the fact that everyone's just going to be much less impressed when i do things right by/for people, i'll never have a 4.0 nor do i really want one, i can't please everyone nor do i want to, the fact that ugly betty was canceled, scott doesn't like the who/oranges, becca doesn't like boys who live in our zip code, priyanka doesn't like daria and jason likes everything and everyone just a little too much, some nice people are too nice and then you don't know if they're honest people, no one can fill your void but yourself, there is no astronaut mike dexter, we're all getting older by the second.

things i don't have to live with.

my carbon footprint, my addiction to simply fruit fruit rollups, my penchant for clutter/freaking out, my furniture, my family once i move into my apartment with emily, eating restaurant food, bad sleeping patterns, the fact that i haven't written a legit story since last semester's french class, not being fluent in hindi/french, apathy.